Caffeine Addiction

Hi, my name is Theresa and I’m addicted to caffeine. It’s been an on and off addiction I have had for a while now. I decided that I would give up caffeine yesterday. I just felt like I was relying on it every single day! If I couldn't get it I felt cruddy and I just didn’t want to feel that way just because I couldn't get my hands on some caffeine. So I decided to try life without it for a little bit and just see how it goes. So far I had an insane headache yesterday and a moderate headache today. I am hoping that means that by tomorrow this whole headache business will be a thing of the past and I can go on to live a nice caffeine free life. I did some research about the pros and cons of caffeine consumption. Really, most people say in moderation, it’s okay for you. Some people say it’s one of the worst things you can do to your body. Whatever, the point is that I am going to try to just quit it for now. Will I pick it up again? Maybe. I don’t really want to be one of those people who can’t function in the morning without my cup of coffee. Well, I don’t drink coffee, but if you insert “diet pop” into all those “gotta have my coffee” statements, that’s pretty much me! I will say this, so far today I feel far less focused and I have been hungry ALL DAY! I’m none too thrilled with the idea of giving up my diet pop if I have to gain 30 lbs to do it! Well, my head hurts again. I’m getting close to giving up on this dream. One moment at a time. We’ll see how it goes!

"Millions saw the apple fall, but Newton was the one who asked why."

Dewy and I took Hayden to the apple orchard.  Dewy was not exactly overwhelmed with excitement about this, but I told him I really wanted to take him, so we did!  Dewy says, “why are we taking him to pick apples?”  I said, “Why not?” I guess with logic like that who could question me? Either way, we took Hayden to the apple orchard to pick apples.  We got there and the “apple guy” gave Dewy a quick tutorial of how to use the basket on a stick to pick our apples.  I think overall we all had a good time.  Hayden liked the taste testing portion of our picking and Dewy enjoyed getting to use a big basket/stick thingy.  I’ll try to post some of the pictures from our venture!  

Hayden picking the apple!

Ahh...MOM It touched me!

I got this mom!

Oh, okay, that's what I am supposed to do?

No worms in there, right?

Gonna get it!

GOT IT! YUM!

Hayden and Mommy

   I have been in somewhat of a sour mood the past few days.  Why you ask? Who knows.  I am just feeling very complain-y, whinny etc. It’s probably PMS.  I do hate to use that excuse, but really it’s probably why.  Anyone who deeply offended that I would talk about PMS probably hasn’t ever experienced it, and can rest assure that my next paragraph will not contain anything having to do with menstruation.  Oh yeah, I used the “m” word.  I enjoyed a nice argument just last night.  I do not think it was a result of my PMS, because I am still feeling very justified as to the reason I was upset in the first place, but I did get snappy when I might not normally have been that way.  I also had a hard time letting go my frustration with the whole situation.    I am still feeling pretty hurt by the whole thing.  Darn tempers anyway! Regardless,  I’m praying, that helps me let things go usually.  
   

 My dad went to the hospital last night.  They are thinking mini stroke.  I’m just praying for a full recovery.  He says that other than a horrible headache, he’s doing better now.  Prayers are appreciated!

Well, I think it’s time to post this one and move on with my afternoon.  I try to keep some consistency, but I really just wrote most of this in a google doc and added to it when I had a free minute here or there.  Not that I feel like my blogs ever really flow very well, but I hope this one made sense!

Drama, drama and more DRAMA!

Drama, drama and more drama!  Wow.  So, can I just say I do NOT miss being a teenage girl.  Working with them daily reminds me how greatful I am that I am in a loving marriage that does not revolve around jealously or bitterness.  It just boggles my mind how much drama goes on with these young girls and their relationships.  It makes me wish that when we were sleeping God would sneak into our dreams and show us glimpses of our futures, and then they could see that this one event in life was not the "be all end all."  I feel badly for the guys that walk into some of this stuff unknowinly, but I feel some pretty huge amounts of anger for the guys that sit back and enjoy watching these girls fight over them(some of them litereally fighting)!  Lord, I pray for these young people!  I am sure their were adults who felt the same looking at my age group back when we were teenagers too.  I think that I was pretty lucky to avoid a lot of that when I was younger.  I didn't really "date" in high school.  I had lots of other drama and such.  Of course I still liked boys who didn't like me, but I try to "steal" any "taken" guys.  I guess in some aspects I was lucky, even if I didn't think so at the time. 

Dear Students

Dear Young Lady that is wearing a shirt that VERY low cut,
       The young men that are giving you a ton of attention because of your low cut shirt, are NOT the young men you probably are trying to get the attention of, nor are they actually giving you positive attention(contrary to what you might believe). 
Love, A concerned Teacher
Dear Young Man who is wearing skinny jeans that are a size better suited to a 2nd grade girl,
        I guess I missed the fashion boat on this one because I can not ponder how you looked in the mirror today and thought that this was a good look on you!  Furthermore, those jeans are so tight, I am actually able to see more things on your body than should be shared.
Love, A concerned(and confused) Teacher.

I am missing out?

Well, after a long summer break (not long enough) I have returned to school.  I love my job, I really do. I enjoy what I do, and I like the kiddos I work with, but I love my baby boy and I miss him. I had a blast with him all summer and really enjoyed all of those little things you get to see happen each day when they are little.  I am blessed with a really great job, so I will continue to work and savor my time at home. 

On another note I have been feeling a little torn the past few months.  I am aware that we all have different stages in our lives where things happen for us and opportunities are presented to us.  I am very content in this stage of my life.  I love my husband and my baby.  I enjoy being married and truly love motherhood.  I look to many of my friends lives and notice that we are in lots of different places.  This, of course, does not change my love for my friends.  It does make it more difficult to spend time with them though. 

 I have not been as good as I should have been about staying as close with my friends as I would like because I have been trying to put the majority of my time/energy into creating my family.  When I got engaged I worked very hard to become part of my husband's family.  He had this huge family, and I just wanted to make sure I fit in with them.  We do a lot of stuff with family.  That is the “norm” for him, it wasn’t for me.  I am so glad I took the time to really get to know his family, and become a part of it, but now I am at a point where I am watching my friends from the outside.  My dear friends Jessica and Erica are about  to end, and just starting two amazing journeys!  Jessica spent the past few months in LA working as an intern for the TV series, “Harry’s Law.”  She blogged about her  incredible adventures in LA, seeing celebrities, hanging out at Warner Bros. Studios and just the everyday life she got to lead while living the Hollywood life.  And now, Erica, has left for 12 weeks in Italy to do her student teaching.  She is also going to blog about her adventure in Rome.  She’s got some amazing sites to see and teaching to experience.   I have had some moments where I thought, “am I missing out?”  I went straight to college out of high school and finished up a short five years later.  When I was done, I got a great job at the high school I am still at 5 years later!  Consistency is a friend of mine =)  Still I wonder, am I missing out?  With all these adventures I see my friends having, and I know well that I would not be able to do at this point in my life, am I missing out? 

            My answer comes in the form of the wide open mouth kisses I got from Hayden this morning.  No, I’m not missing out; I’m just in a different place.  I have had adventures that some of my friends have not had a chance to yet experience.  I got married (which is its own adventure every single day) and had a baby!  I know that marriage and a baby might not seem the same as traveling the world, but it’s an adventure every single day.  I am SO excited for my friends getting to go do some amazing things.  I love getting to hear about all of the details of their journeys!  I sometimes need to take a moment to step back and remember that their journey is not going to look like my journey, and it doesn’t make theirs better or worse, just different.  I love where I am now, and how I got here. 
            Well this has been a very long entry.  Well people, take a look around and be thankful for your journey and where it has lead you!

I am not a runner!

I have been called many things in my life, and let me tell you that "runner" has never been one of those names.  Just look at me! I do not have the body of a runner.  I do not have the cardiovascular health a runner should have. I am in no way fit to be a runner.  What I do have is the williness to try new things.  Well I completed week one of the C25k work out. Couch to 5K, and I am not joking about the couch.  I think I did one other physical activity besides this(leading up to this point). 
Things I have learned so far
1. I shouldn't be doing my workout at night, it really doesn't help me sleep at all!
2. If I push myself I can do this so far, however, I still go a lot slower than I am sure some other people do.
3. Ugh, I am not in shape at all!
So I sure hope I can stick with this.  Anyone who knows me knows that I have never been skinny(okay I was a stick up until I was in first grade maybe.) My entire adult life I have been a bigger girl.  Even at my thinnest, I was still a bigger girl.  I am pretty sure that I didn't fit in with half of the people in high school because I never fit that mold of the average sized girl.  The point is, that I have become fine with my body.  It is what it is and I don't know if there will ever be a large change in it's shape and size.  I do not expect my body shape or size to change, but I am hoping I can build up some endurance and cardio strength to be able to do this.  So, I guess we'll see!  If you see me running(however slowly it may be) a 5K in October, you'll know I was able to meet my goal!

I should do___but I don't wanna

So today is one of those days where I have a lot of little things to do but don't really want to do any of them.  I think that right now I should be folding towels, and yet here I am, updating my blog instead.  Well, yesterday I started C25K.  I am not really under the impression that I could end up really running a 5K but I am going to try to stick with this program.  My reason? Well, I just want to be healthier.  I want to get in my physical activity.  I want to have more energy to run around with Hayden. I started yesterday and I still feel pretty good today.  The only thing that is really sore is my knees, and sometimes my knees hurt without doing anything the day before.  I really pushed myself to start yesterday even though my stomach was pretty upset.  Today, I must say my stomach feels worse.  I want to go run with Katie tonight, but I worry that I won't be able to keep up, because my run/jog is pretty slow.  We'll see though, I gotta get my tummy feeling better because at this point I couldn't run or jog or anything.  Maybe when I run to the bank I will pick up some tums or something and that will help? I don't know, we'll see. 
Well, I should not put it off any longer.  Hayden will probably wake up any moment.  I need to fold some laundry. I don't know what is so off with me today but I just am having one of those days where I could just sit and not move and be happy about it.